Although that movie is not one of my favorites, the saying rings true in almost anything of this world. I love my midwife. I love the atmosphere she creates in her care... this calm, let it happen, don't worry about things that aren't there, listen to your body and your instinct, your the mother and in control of your own baby, I've got your back, kind of care. It's wonderful. It leaves my pregnancy between us (Josh and I) and our Protector. As I'm into my last trimester, the inevitable braxton hicks starts kicking in at full force. I kind of like them cause it gives me LOTS of practice for staying calm and relaxed for actual labor, but it's not so fun when I'm unsure if I should be taking action against, "preterm labor" contractions that seem to collect almost every night. With the kind of care that this particular midwife is giving me, I'm able to calm down about them in my head, and know that "this is what I do... I have lots of contractions, all the time, and I will know when it's real labor or not. and until then.... DON'T WORRY ABOUT IT! Let them come and do their thing... they are as stubborn as you are" ;)
At my last appt. we discussed "the glucose test". I grumbled about it, and said, kidding, "Do I have to?" and she replied, "No" with this nonchalant look on her face. I asked, "Really??" We discussed it a little further, talking about my history of no gestational diabetes with all 4 pregnancies. That glucose test always makes me jittery and gives me headaches. Why do that to my body/and baby when there's no symptoms of the diagnosis for which I'm being tested for? Which led me to saying, "Ok! No glucose test then!"
As I pass the mark for when I started "preterm-like contractions" being pregnant with #4, not having the "hype" (a.k.a. medical intervention and hours of sitting in triage, being sent home with medications) about whatever contractions I'm having now, I feel a bit of success as I wait for the next mark which would be 33 weeks. (preterm labor contractions with #3) I'm optimistic about it, which is new for me, but I think I'm getting a little better about this optimistic approach... (not good, just better, ha..) I'm bound and determined to NOT need to be on any "labor stopping meds" with this one. No bed rest would be nice too....
My ultrasound went very well. Baby is 2.5 lbs. :) Oh, .. and my placenta moved!! ... not sure how, but it did! Praise God! It's now 6 1/2 cm away from my cervix, for those of you who really wanted to know that. :) They couldn't tell if "cranio" was apparent, but I knew, by experience, that you can't really diagnose something like that with ultrasound, but I did go back and compare ultra sound photos from Tesh and this one, and I see a beautiful difference. Look at these ultra sound picks (all you "head pickers") See how Tesh's forehead is out a little and the back of her head is slanted funny? Then look at Baby #5's head... normal looking to me!
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| Baby Tesh- cranio- |
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| Baby #5- normal looking head- |
Baby is breech.... not worrying about that right now. This baby has been so active that I swear it's trying to come through my actual belly, always kicking and rolling around. My hubs had his hand resting on my belly last night, during a movie, and eventually he said, "Calm down kid!" ..lol... so I'm not worried and I'm TRUSTING God and this baby, that it's gonna go where it's supposed to go when it's time... however... it'd be nice for it to settle head down cause I've learned by my own experience that breech baby contractions hurt... they are very uncomfortable. It's like I can tell that something's off, so it didn't surprise me to hear that baby is breech.
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| I don't like 3D ultrasounds very much, baby's face is distorted because of the umbilical cord being in it's face, which baby was caught sucking on... yum... but if you notice, baby's big toe is touching it's forehead. |
On a Christmas note: it was pointed out to me that the song Silent Night was originally in German.
"It was Dec. 24th ,1818 in a small Austrian village called Oberndorf, just hours before Christmas mass and pastor Joseph Mohr was in a bind. His musical plans for the evening church service were ruined since the organ of his church (St. Nicholas Kirche) had broken down recently due to a recent flooding of the nearby river. What could he do? In a moment of inspiration, he grabbed a Christmas poem he had written two years earlier and quickly set off to the neighbouring village, where his friend Franz Gruber, the church organist, lived.
It is believed that Franz Gruber was able to produce on that night in just a few short hours, the first version of the world renowned Christmas hymn “Stille Nacht”." (http://german.about.com/od/christmas/a/StilleNacht.htm)
The literal translation:
"Silent night, holy night. All is sleeping, alone watches only the close, most holy couple.
Blessed boy in curly hair, sleep in heavenly peace!
Silent night, holy night. Shepherds just informed by the angels' hallelujah,
It rings out far and wide: Christ the Savior is here!
Silent night, holy night. Son of God, oh how laughs love out of Your divine mouth,
Because now the hour of salvation strikes for us. Christ, in Thy birth!"
I absolutely love reading lyrics to old hymns such as these, cause there is usually theological depth to it. Most songs, today, don't have a lot of depth to them, not that they are bad, but just not as artistic as they could be, especially one with talents that are God-given to write such poetry. This song, in particular, is so sweet and simple, describing this.... silent night of holiness. My, personal, break down version:
While everyone sleeps, there is something so extreme happening. Something so life-altering.
While everyone sleeps, the attention of the heavens is upon this couple, bringing forth this Child, but not just any child, the Son of God.
While everyone sleeps, the angels are illuminating the sky, and singing with heavenly voices that Christ the Savior is indeed here. I would've loved to see that.
While everyone sleeps, our Savior "laughs Love", sounds His voice, through human mouth, for the first time, beginning His journey of the greatest sacrifice. At this point, does He know and understand His destiny?
While everyone sleeps, the hour of salvation is upon us, the pivotal moment where we now have a choice to make. Will we follow and believe that this is real? Will we believe that this Son of God, born this night, will save us?
While everyone sleeps, will you awake to His whisper, His mouth close to your ear, as a lover is close, saying your name?
Even while everyone sleeps? I love the lyrics to Relient K's song "I Celebrate the Day" -
" .. and I celebrate the day, that You were born to die, so I could one day pray for You to save my life." 
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